Again let me say thank you to you all for your good advice that I have taken to heart.
I did meet a local Buddhist group and the meeting was good but not what I had
hoped for in finding or locating a teacher that I feel like I need.
So I took your advice and found relatively close to me and awakened spiritual teacher that
was having a local get together. This is what I have been looking for an needed how it has
just changed me to have found someone who understands and everything I say.
When you try to explain to somebody that your nonself is awake it can be extremely hard
to get that point across but when you find someone that is the same as you feel a deep
connection because you can look in their eyes and see they know not some bull they read
in some book but the truth of experience.
As far as my journey has taken me this in things here that have been said that I will lose some friends
and gain new ones this is so true. I've also learned the best I can do help lead by example and principles
when I can keep my thoughts to myself in the only express them when I'm asked.
I so much wish I could share how I feel now and see this world with others so they may see it
as it really is. I know this sounds so simple but that's how it really is you have to take a step backwards.
I am absolutely nobody, average, nothing special but everybody has this within them I know this
in my heart to be true. I am blessed because I was not looking for this but the first day I started to live
was after this happened.