Ayu wrote:I'm in a discussion with a person about ethical conduct and non-violence.
Often I have only the choice between
a) telling him my honest thoughts about his furious thinking, speaking and acting or
b) keeping silent.
In case a) he feels offended, while case b) is something like maximum penalty, because he has not much buddhist friends, maybe even none, but I feel he needs this discussions desperately.
Now, when he feels offended, he beats back. The dernier cri is he tries to discuss about my spiritual buddhist daily practice. He tries to put me down to have advantage over me, and I see here it becomes difficult for me. Maybe now I have said all that had to be said and should keep him alone with this. Or am I running away?
But I see/feel: my practice is mine. It's nearly the only thing, that is mine and important in this crazy world. I should not let him spoil my energy. Is that understandable? If I discuss if my practice is useful or not, it will spoil the inspiration unconciously. I experienced that already and it took me much painful time to restore the contact to the deepness of my practice.
I think, I am not yet strong enough for such discussions and have to protect myself. On the other hand I have the avid desire to help him and not neglect him as he is a suffering being.
Has anybody similar experiences?
dear heart, I've been challenged by friends like this. It's not all that important if you maintain a relationship with them or not. You will know what is good for you, and them. It really doesn't matter if you drop the need to change them.
The precious question is.... is it your practice. Is it really yours? What if it's not. Can you follow the practice and the life that is yours joyfully.