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I give up

Postby Epistemes » Tue Oct 25, 2011 11:22 pm

I don't give up on Buddhism. Chaz would relish in that a little too much. I give up on myself. I don't know why. I just do.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
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Re: I give up

Postby Virgo » Tue Oct 25, 2011 11:29 pm

Maybe your practice is working?

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Re: I give up

Postby padma norbu » Wed Oct 26, 2011 1:02 am

I agree with Virgo. I just had a similar breakthrough myself.

Check this out: http://www.shambhalasun.com/index.php?o ... 5&Itemid=0
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Re: I give up

Postby Epistemes » Wed Oct 26, 2011 2:04 am

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Re: I give up

Postby sangyey » Wed Oct 26, 2011 3:34 am

Use it as motivation for practice.

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Re: I give up

Postby Grigoris » Wed Oct 26, 2011 10:31 am

So now that you have given up are you gonna get the tattoo removed?
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Re: I give up

Postby Epistemes » Wed Oct 26, 2011 1:27 pm

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Re: I give up

Postby Grigoris » Wed Oct 26, 2011 2:03 pm

That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.

As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
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Jetsun Milarepa 1052-1135 CE

"Butchers, prostitutes, those guilty of the five most heinous crimes, outcasts, the underprivileged: all are utterly the substance of existence and nothing other than total bliss."
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Re: I give up

Postby PadmaVonSamba » Wed Oct 26, 2011 4:51 pm

So........
do you think this feeling is permanent?
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The Chinese characters are Fo (buddha) and Ming (bright). The image is of a student of Buddhism, who, imagining himself to be a monk, and not understanding the true meaning of the words takes the sound of the words literally. Likewise, People on web forums sometime seem to be foaming at the mouth.
Original painting by P.Volker /used by permission.

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Re: I give up

Postby Epistemes » Wed Oct 26, 2011 4:56 pm

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Re: I give up

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