I give up

[Karma Dondrup Tashi]

It's my medulla oblongata.

[dakini_boi]

I don't give up on Buddhism. Chaz would relish in that a little too much. I give up on myself. I don't know why. I just do.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.

Awww, sorry to hear about your illness. Good to hear you're giving up on self. Since these things only have the significance and meaning we assign to them, consider regarding your illness as purification. . .

here's a beautiful medicine buddha chant for you as you recover
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vDvEt2qSFbU

[Virgo]

Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?

Kevin

It's my medulla oblongata.

In your next life, Epistemes, will you have the same medulla oblongata?

Kevin

[Epistemes]

Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?

It's my medulla oblongata.

In your next life, Epistemes, will you have the same medulla oblongata?

No, but that doesn't mean it's not the essential part of my being.

[Virgo]

No, but that doesn't mean it's not the essential part of my being.

Is that what momma said?

Kevin

[Epistemes]

No, but that doesn't mean it's not the essential part of my being.

Is that what momma said?

It's what textbooks say.

[ground]

I don't give up ... I give up ... I don't know ... I just do.
I got ... and I threw up ... I watched ... I had to ... I tended ... I don't care ...

In times of confusion some thoughts are orbiting the other thoughts "I" and "mine". That's "natural".

We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.

Which has to be faced and dealt with individually. The thought "we" doesn't change this althought sometimes it may help to extend the narrow confines caused by the thoughts "I" and "mine".


Kind regards