And now..rain slush dark
then for a bit in dark..light from ones self, as eyes lit by moonlight seemingly..fog no moon nor light..
..for a bit walking like that...
remembering as a child, high fever. Father carrying one, light all around, one reaches for light switch, shutting off light, light, father says..it is already off.
So high that fever, all skin on fingers, and toes, dies, leaving one with surface of dead skin, like web covering live skin. And then breaking and skin underneath being so raw it hurt just feeling a thing. And fingers so grooved then one can feel the groves in them...so strange.
and once at period of great surprise once in dark, seeing light as if in sunny day.... but just a flash that.
now this thing, a bit before, this time more...walking in it, as if a orb, or circle....
and then home to hearth and fire....no matter this thing, no matter at all.
"This order considers that progress can be achieved more rapidly during a single month of self-transformation through terrifying conditions in rough terrain and in "the abode of harmful forces" than through meditating for a period of three years in towns and monasteries"....Takpo Tashi Namgyal.