I give up
I give up
I don't give up on Buddhism. Chaz would relish in that a little too much. I give up on myself. I don't know why. I just do.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
I got a pretty nasty virus Saturday evening - probably the one you have KDT - and I threw up all night long, slept alone and miserable, had stupid 1850s antebellum American Senate dreams: "I say, Mishtuh Congressman, my constituency will stand for these here foibles, nor will I allow myself to transgress the oath that I took as representative..." I watched movies all day Sunday. Stupid meaningless movies. I had to recuperate. Then my girlfriend got sick on Monday, so I tended to her. Now everyone's back to health and I don't care about anything anymore, porn has even lost appeal. **** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
Cantankerous Buddha
Re: I give up
Maybe your practice is working?
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Re: I give up
I agree with Virgo. I just had a similar breakthrough myself.
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Re: I give up
Porn had an appeal? I always saw it as being pretty gross, even before being Buddhist. So at least you are on the right track if it is no longer appealing to you.Epistemes wrote:porn has even lost appeal.
Sounds like indifference, an improvement, but near enemy to the desired brahma-vihara of equanimity.**** the world. **** you, ****me, **** it. We're all gonna be just dirt in the ground.
Re: I give up
There's no practice, only shadows.Virgo wrote:Maybe your practice is working?
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Re: I give up
Use it as motivation for practice.
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Re: I give up
If you see that, then you are on the right track.Epistemes wrote:There's no practice, only shadows.Virgo wrote:Maybe your practice is working?
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So now that you have given up are you gonna get the tattoo removed?
"My religion is not deceiving myself."
Jetsun Milarepa 1052-1135 CE
"Butchers, prostitutes, those guilty of the five most heinous crimes, outcasts, the underprivileged: all are utterly the substance of existence and nothing other than total bliss."
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The Fundamental Tantra of Dzogchen Semde
Jetsun Milarepa 1052-1135 CE
"Butchers, prostitutes, those guilty of the five most heinous crimes, outcasts, the underprivileged: all are utterly the substance of existence and nothing other than total bliss."
The Supreme Source - The Kunjed Gyalpo
The Fundamental Tantra of Dzogchen Semde
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Yes, and I am thinking of getting it replaced with the White Tree of Gondorgregkavarnos wrote:So now that you have given up are you gonna get the tattoo removed?
or something more James Brown
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That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.
As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
"My religion is not deceiving myself."
Jetsun Milarepa 1052-1135 CE
"Butchers, prostitutes, those guilty of the five most heinous crimes, outcasts, the underprivileged: all are utterly the substance of existence and nothing other than total bliss."
The Supreme Source - The Kunjed Gyalpo
The Fundamental Tantra of Dzogchen Semde
Jetsun Milarepa 1052-1135 CE
"Butchers, prostitutes, those guilty of the five most heinous crimes, outcasts, the underprivileged: all are utterly the substance of existence and nothing other than total bliss."
The Supreme Source - The Kunjed Gyalpo
The Fundamental Tantra of Dzogchen Semde
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Nah Greg you are more Gimli the dwarf.gregkavarnos wrote:That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.
As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
antebellum American Senate dreams ...
hahahaha
Sorry ... that's just awesome. I dunno why it just is.
Mine’s a tale that can’t be told, my freedom I hold dear.
How years ago in days of old, when magic filled the air.
T’was in the darkest depths of Mordor, I met a girl so fair.
But Gollum, and the evil one crept up and slipped away with her, her, her … yeah
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So........
do you think this feeling is permanent?
do you think this feeling is permanent?
EMPTIFUL.
An inward outlook produces outward insight.
An inward outlook produces outward insight.
Re: I give up
Nothing's permanent, silly monk.PadmaVonSamba wrote:So........
do you think this feeling is permanent?
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Re: I give up
It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.gregkavarnos wrote:That's obviously a post-mortem icon of James Brown the guy has tatooed on his chest.
As for Gondor, I think I prefer the Orcs! Gondor is a little too "white" and angst ridden for my liking.
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Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
Heretic. Burn.
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I know right. I dare not speak such words in the presence of my brothers-in-law.Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote:Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
Heretic. Burn.
"All phenomena of samsara depend on the mind, so when the essence of mind is purified, samsara is purified. Since the phenomena of nirvana depend on the pristine consciousness of vidyā, because one remains in the immediacy of vidyā, buddhahood arises on its own. All critical points are summarized with those two." - Longchenpa
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Actually I speekee your language. A few of my friends have been telling me it's the best thing since sliced bread. And now we have it on the TV too so I suppose I should get reading/watching ...Nangwa wrote:I know right. I dare not speak such words in the presence of my brothers-in-law.Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote:Nangwa wrote:It may sound like blasphemy but A Song of Ice and Fire is way better.
Heretic. Burn.
But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
It has been the misfortune (not, as these gentlemen think it, the glory) of this age that everything is to be discussed. Edmund Burke, Reflections on the Revolution in France.
Re: I give up
Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
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Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?Epistemes wrote:Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
Kevin
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It's my medulla oblongata.Virgo wrote:Which piece of you is the essential part? Where is your essential being? Is it your hair, your nails, skin, teeth? Your feelings? If so is it anger, happiness? Aren't feelings always changing? So where is this essential being?Epistemes wrote:Thank you. I was beginning to wonder....Karma Dondrup Tashi wrote: But enough of this, back to Epistemes' whining ...
Kevin
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