CedarTree wrote: ↑
Mon Nov 20, 2017 7:53 pm
Coëmgenu wrote: ↑
Mon Nov 20, 2017 12:26 am
I appreciate your nomination, but I feel that my place has been considerably less well-earned.
I'm currently working two jobs, construction and at a bakery on-and-off.
I wouldn't consider myself a heavyweight of DharmaWheel. Perhaps I would have back when I used to fight regularly with DavidBrainerd over at DhammaWheel, but even then, that was mostly vanity work.
Most of my posts, actually, although I try my best to make them informative and useful, are actually a small part vanity work. If I try to be nice to myself about it, I would say 20-30%, but when I am feeling cynical, I wonder if it is not more.
I re-read them, my posts, back and back obsessively checking for spelling mistakes or ways I could have wrote it better. I actually limit my time actually logged-on to this forum, because
of its tendencies to interact with my intellectual vanity.
I bet you didn't expect me to say that!
How did you become such a scholar on the texts! Lol
I also don't think I am a scholar concerning these texts. For instance, I don't think I could get published. I don't have any qualifications. I am teaching myself Chinese currently with the interest of learning it as a dharma language, but I don't have any degrees or certifications for it.
I have a BFA with a specialization in Music that is almost complete, though. If that counts.
Like this is the uncreated, like this is that which is difficult to realize, with no moving, no bending, no dying. Utterly lacking secretions and smothered in the dark, it is the island shore. Where there is ferrying, it is the crossing. It is dependency's ceasing, it is the end of circulating transmissions. It is the exhaustion of the flame, it is the ending of the burning. Flowing openly, pure and cool, with secret subtlety, and calm occultation, lacking ailment, lacking owning, nirvāṇa.
Asaṁskṛtadharmasūtra, Sermon on the Uncreated Phenomenon, T99.224b7, Saṁyuktāgama 890