Ayu wrote:In the film "Tulku", there is a passage where the young tulku Wyatt discribes how his guru looked at him. Nobody looks at you with such eyes, with such love.
I can relate to that. My lama is able to look at me purely, with the eyes of a father or mother with simple love and nothing else. This is extraordinary and it shows his state of mind. Noone else is able to see me without judgement.
Before I met him I found this prayer 'Calling for the guru' in the internet. When I read it I had to cry, I felt such despair to be apart from a good teacher, who could show me the right path.
Then some days later a friend told me there would be a Buddhist lecture, she said she likes this teacher especially. I thought, well, give it a shot and go there - but I didn't expect anything.
When I sat in that lecture, I found that place to be quite nice. A decent Tibetan teacher speaking sanely and compassionately. The longer this lecture lasted the stronger was the "vibration" I felt. I thought: Maybe this could be my teacher? Maybe I knew him in a lifetime before?
While the translator was speaking, the lama looked at the faces in the audiance one by one. When he saw me, he looked surprised. Me too. I felt like he was thinking: Are you here finally? Where have you been all these years?
This might be only hallucinated or projected, nobody knows. But I started to follow this teacher and it was a big change for my spiritual life. A good decision.
This sounds genuine to me. Perhaps this should be the most helpful response to the OP. I don't think anyone can really describe a sure shot procedure to finding their tsawei lama. It seems to generally happen like this though with a lot of yearning and emotion for a lot of people including Milarepa if I'm not mistaken. There is a saying "the teacher will find you" And another "make yourself ready, and the teacher will find you" Open your heart and call out honestly and you will find him.
the problem with shopping around for a lama is that the ego gets too involved. One thing you risk is picking one that appeals to your subliminal egoistic desires on the spiritual path. Another is getting frustrated at not finding one and this sense of urgency and picking the wrong one and getting yourself into trouble. If this is a serious dilemma I recommend you relax about it. It happens when you are ready as do all things in this universe. No need for anxiety. It is definitely important, and when the time comes just try to see it and move on it, but if it isn't happening just give it time.
by the way I don't know what type of person you are. I think it's OK for some people to shop around, but only the most cool headed and rational people. Thats definitely not for people who are easily swept up in currents of passion or infatuation. Know yourself.
