I definitely won't give up my practice. My main forms of practice currently are recitation of the Casket Seal Dharani when I have a quiet period of time with myself, e.g. when tending to my baby daughter alone, when driving by myself. Other times I try to contemplate Amitabha Buddha whenever I can and remember to, e.g. when eating, walking, doing housework, etc., just before falling asleep, after waking up (this one is really helpful for Pure Land purpose).Dave The Seeker wrote:There's been some good advice here.
I wouldn't suggest giving up your practice. Buddhism is working on ourselves to be able to help others. The changes that happen to us are the things that others see more than we do. At least for the most part.
There's no point pushing your belief onto others nor them to do to you. Can you see where I'm coming from?
Being a good son, husband and father are, for the most part, things you've made the decision to do.
Follow through with these decisions with compassion and love.
Be the loving husband and father as well as the person your children want to be like.
Your path will help you to become better at doing these things. Keep working on yourself and things will get much better.
Hope your search for a job ends soon.
When not seen by others in the family (other than my baby girl), I may chant dharani and Amitabha's name using the vajra method - mouth closed, move tongue only without making audible noise. When in the presence of other family members, I use the yoga method - chanting with my mind only.