Firstly to state I don't claim buddhism. So much is buddhism today and much is far removed from me, I don't feel proper in claiming it. But I use buddhist texts as practice manuals to enhance understanding, and have certain empowerments and such, and am buddhist by ceremony.
I try to spend as much time in wilderness as possible. Present circumstances prohibited that largly this year(only three trips), but I mainly spend a month and a half in retreat house, but usually, wilderness, in the past years. But I live next to national forest so I try to expand my wilderness meditational practice to some degree here. I spent five years of time doing service to establish the necessary base for spiritual progression in meditation, more extensive mantra and prayers and ceremony. I maintain some service of a political nature but only a vestiage of past activity. Now I focus on meditation. Though much is not structured (some always is on a daily basis)...I am always watching/evaluating this thing of mind in everything. I consciously present circumstance to study mind but unconsciously I find circumstance presents to study mind as well. Ultimately self inspires these unconscious circumstantial presentations but it does feel like being led in a certain direction. Always in temple for instance.. I see a bug that needs to be saved reminding me of how the importance is not the temple nor the ceremony or me, but the compassionate intent of saving bug. The ground of things I assume always teaches. It seems that way. I am of the ground of thngs of course, but it is most easy with how things present, to see things happening of this sort as exterior.
So I mainly meditate. My present meditational endeavors involve periods of quietatude, and study of the functioning of mind as it relates to self. Moods and such I may elicit with particular causes to aid in study. Part of my practice is to study mind in varying contexts, some in wilderness some in city, as per my study guide. So part of my participation here on this board, is the mind in city part. Which I will abstain from when this part is done for a time. As a householder I have some family responsibilty but not to extensive.
I sing mantra always at least one daily, a bit as part of my requirement with empowerment, (I sing don't say it). but mainly to spread dharma to those insects animals spirts and such that may inhabit areas I frequent. Humans it seems are to my opinion mainly lost causes their karmic necessity seems like concrete or very heavy mud....so I bother with other things. I wonder at times of the human life being most conducive to progression....it seems not at all mostly, for most, just egoism. At least it may be a spark to hear dharma song, for other things, to start the path. To hear at least once dharma sung within the context of a empty thing. So I do that, and most enjoy that.
I think I have a very fine singing voice and sing quite loud, unbelievably loud actually...
though spirits and animals may quite disagree.
In wilderness I go to remote places of fear and spirit inhabitation, to elicit mind in fear. It seems quite beneficial for that purpose. But winter stops that for a while. I will go through all events with eyes wide open such as even pain, drilling teeth and such, other pains(other than when sleeping is necessary)...to watch mind in those circumstances. Everything....eyes wide open which is how I meditate formally and not. I do use caffines, teas and such things, at times to stay most wide awake, when drowsy dreamy meditational moods ensue. I lift weights to balance spacyness of meditational moods with a grounding force. I jog and such, hike.... some in part to maintain body, some to study mind in quiet environment. I think that is necessary to be fit, to stay wide awake and effectively meditate. Other wise the body overpowers it.
Sio that is it in a nutshell. I trade stocks and stuff to supplement income sometimes.
Nothing stated here is to infer I have any spiritual progression of any sort, nor to infer I am in any way educated to things. I am a uneducated very simple, layperson with a very very slight bit of enhancement in this life, of my very minimal compassioante intent...is all. That is my ultimate measure of this thing, compassion. But that was my goal to increase just the slightest bit....so I have attained my goal, all the rest is gravy. Thusly I am mainly...living in paradise. Watching the sensations available to this distillant of awareness....this human body is quite quite entertaining. Light is golden to me now, I never fail to be amazed, at what I am now seeing and feeling. I am so strange...
sometimes I frighten myself.
Mind of circumstantial origin, my mind, is quite common and ordianary....mostly I pay it no mind, except in the watching.