About that theme, "nothing exists", both sides are clear, conventional truth, existence, ultimate truth, non-existence. But the question is, what value does Buddhist training in the non-existence side give to you?
I know that there is this "Tom Schwarz" figure that can be conceived, very ephemeral, soon to be forgotten. Then there is this idea emptiness, where in realty there is an absence of defining characteristics, signlessness, and no increase, no decrease. And quite frankly, I like that better. I accept the idea of ego and self, but I do not like it, and it hurts to try to maintain it. One third of Buddhism Practice is meditation. And what I like to do in Buddhist meditation is discover a part of my mind that is not my thoughts, that can see those thoughts, arise fall disappear, but that underlies the context of those "Tom Schwarz" ideas of fear, hope, desire, wishes, goals, and so on....
What about you?
From Arya Nagarjuna, "The Heart of Dependent Origination"
4. All beings consist of causes and effects,
In which there is no ‘sentient being’ at all.
From phenomena which are exclusively empty,
There arise only empty phenomena.
All things are devoid of any ‘I’ or ‘mine’.
5. Like a recitation, a candle, a mirror, a seal,
A magnifying glass, a seed, sourness, or a sound,
So also with the continuation of the aggregates—
The wise should know they are not transferred.
6. Then, as for extremely subtle entities,
Those who regard them with nihilism,
Lacking precise and thorough knowledge,
Will not see the actuality of conditioned arising.
7. In this, there is not a thing to be removed,
Nor the slightest thing to be added.
It is looking perfectly into reality itself,
And when reality is seen, complete liberation.