pemachophel wrote:As soon as you notice being attached to your meditation, destroy it and start again fresh and without grasping. Again and again and again and again.
JKhedrup wrote:You will find though in the Vajrayogini chapter of the Chakrasamvara tantra itself, the importance of the spiritual teacher is mentioned. These types of practices pass from master to master in an unbroken lineage, which is how the tantric tradition has been passed on. You will find this holds for the other tantras too.
Because this practice has been passed down this way from the very beginning, you should strongly consider receiving proper initiation and instructions into it. It is wonderful that you have powerful imprints for the practice. But even the Dalai Lamas, Karmapas, Sakya Trizins etc. need to take the initiations again each lifetime. If such elevated beings need to at least go through the motions, what does that say for ordinary people like us?
Often (but not always) there are good reasons that a thing is done a certain way. Out of your regard for Vajrayogini and Her practice, it would be wise to seek the necessary transmissions. I don't think receiving the initiation would mean you would have to abandon your other practices or teachers.
underthetree wrote:JKhedrup is absolutely right. Vajrayogini's 'reality' is within Her practice. If you wish to connect with Her, the practice is, in the end, the only way. Without the empowerment, you are on the outside. This isn't true of all powerful female deities (Shakta Hinduism is there for you, though you still eventually need a teacher), but it is of any Vajrayana yidam. Yidam practice is extremely specific. You can work with Her on the outside, but ultimately your experience will be in 2D and it won't be authentic. She is a yidam, not an exoteric deity. You will be working with concepts and images. In order to achieve what I think you want, you need the empowerment to induct you into Her mandala. Then everything becomes quite different.
pemachophel wrote:Drupon Trinlay Nyingpo (Drukpa Kagyud) will be giving the Vajrayogini empowerment in early November at Ratnashri in Boulder, CO followed by a several day retreat. The retreat is limited to 12 persons. For more information, see the following link: https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?shva=1#inbox/13a1f55abfce356d
Mr. G wrote:pemachophel wrote:Drupon Trinlay Nyingpo (Drukpa Kagyud) will be giving the Vajrayogini empowerment in early November at Ratnashri in Boulder, CO followed by a several day retreat. The retreat is limited to 12 persons. For more information, see the following link: https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?shva=1#inbox/13a1f55abfce356d
That link doesn't seem to be the right one.