I have been thinking of my options lately:
1) Watch it all collapse. How long can it take for the next Hurricane Sandy but more powerful? Honestly I want to see all the consumers and workers around me die, including me. Like I said before, none of them ever put anything back in the earth, it is all just take, take, take. They/we deserve it for our sins and refusal to be anything else but takers/users/abusers/imperialists/consumers.
Unfortunately doing what you don't want to do until collapse seems unattractive and all the rich, who are most responsible for climate change will afford to escape the region anyway with little penalty as they have several places to live in different parts of the world.
2) Live totally without money which I have mentioned on this forum. Ever since I have heard of
Daniel Suelo who has been doing this since 2000(Youtube video) I knew it was what I wanted to do most in life. However I have ZERO skills necessary to live off the land. My grandparents largely lived without money as poor peasants, but growing up with them as a young child, they always yelled at me when I tried to help or go near the garden, when I tried to do woodwork with my grandfather, etc.
So I don't know how feasible that is, lacking the necessary skills unlike Suelo who had camped out frequently in his life prior and went on expeditions living off the land even in hostile Alaska before moving to Moab, Utah to live in a cave without money.
3) Stick out my job and try to get promoted to a better craft like a car inspector or electrician. I will still hate it overall, but many of those bastards only work like 3 hours in an 8 hour shift and just gossip like hens, sleep or putz around on their cellphones for the rest of the time.
Overall I don't think I can be happy as a worker, though, no matter what. I am not a good fascist that can pervert myself for the needs of institutions like my employers, school, etc. Almost every job, along with school that I have had, I always have wanted to quit and eventually I wake up and just cannot muster the life force necessary to bring myself to continue to go to work, when I never wanted to in the first place, so I just quit or don't show up. Doing less actual work in a promoted craft should ameliorate that, but I just hate the nature of being a worker and what it entails. I don't want to sell the best portions of my life just for money, only because everyone and thus survival is literally for sale and requires money. Going to work is like the slow internal murder of oneself. Unlike the rest of the escapist loving scum, I know it doesn't have to be that way, it can all change tomorrow if they stop watching television, hiding on the internet, acting out video game fantasies and using religion to hide from social reality.
4) Try to do something more constructive with my free time like start my own anti-escapist zine for the hoi-polloi who have no idea and have worked hard to have no idea how the world really works(due to their massive need for escapism to avoid this painful reality) or start a micro-power radio station(quasi-legal - illegal at best). This would be easier to do if I could get promoted. However, for some reason I don't feel like I can do anything worth doing in life for some reason and will likely just continue to mope about in a pool of sweat on my bed or the couch doing nothing or itinerantly browsing the net till I have to work and eventually die. Every adult has taught me as a child the unwritten message that life is about doing what you don't want to do, just because you have to since there is money in it. I know consciously this is untrue, but my much more powerful subconscious thinks it is true, so I am paralyzed. I am thus actually worse off in my life than worker-consumer zombies who cannot imagine that life consists of anything else but money since they invested all their free time in dulling themselves via constant escapism.
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I have been thinking that what I want to do most is used my saved up money to get some skills by learning permaculture somewhere in the USA. Then when I think I have mastered that, go back to either my father's village or my mother's village in Greece and try to do it, live without money or formal salaried work. I mean that is what grandparents mostly did even as late 1967 before they immigrated, they farmed what they ate and sold a little for money for what they couldn't do themselves. I need to go back and correct their foolish mistake and instead of coming to the USA or staying here to make more money, go back and live with none. Just work the land and scavenge clothing and whatever else from the collapsing capitalist society. Live in a cave when the weather is suitable, and when it isn't in one of my grandparent's houses. During World War II in Greece the thousands of guerillas lived in caves during the formal occupation of Germany's Third Reich. It should be much easier for one Greek-American to live in a cave during the
Fourth Reich's fiscal and
institutional occupation via the European Union.
